The first episode of Read Me to Sleep Ricky's second season is a reading by host Rick Whitaker from his own 2013 novel An Honest Ghost.
"Like an Italian micromosaic, whose infinitesimal ceramic tesserae generate an unearthly glow just by being in close proximity to each other, Rick Whitaker's An Honest Ghost is both narrative and objet, a singular work of art whose singularity keeps beckoning to the reader. He has put the force back into tour de force." --John Ashbery
Composed entirely of discrete, unedited sentences recycled from more than 500 other books, An Honest Ghost is an autobiographical literary feat unlike any other.
Music: Brad Garton's Coronavirus Suite (2020)
The transcription following contains a list of all the quotes, in order of appearance, that make up An Honest Ghost. Each quote is followed by the author who wrote it; the book in my library from which the sentence was taken; and the page number on which it appears in that edition. RW
Read Me to Sleep, Ricky is hosted by Rick Whitaker and produced in New York City.
Contact: rickawhitaker@gmail.com
https://readmetosleepricky.com
The first episode of Read Me to Sleep Ricky's second season is a reading by host Rick Whitaker from his own 2013 novel An Honest Ghost.
"Like an Italian micromosaic, whose infinitesimal ceramic tesserae generate an unearthly glow just by being in close proximity to each other, Rick Whitaker's An Honest Ghost is both narrative and objet, a singular work of art whose singularity keeps beckoning to the reader. He has put the force back into tour de force." --John Ashbery
Composed entirely of discrete, unedited sentences recycled from more than 500 other books, An Honest Ghost is an autobiographical literary feat unlike any other.
Music: Brad Garton's Coronavirus Suite (2020)
The transcription following contains a list of all the quotes, in order of appearance, that make up An Honest Ghost. Each quote is followed by the author who wrote it; the book in my library from which the sentence was taken; and the page number on which it appears in that edition. RW
Read Me to Sleep, Ricky is hosted by Rick Whitaker and produced in New York City.
Contact: rickawhitaker@gmail.com
https://readmetosleepricky.com
A podcast by Rick Whitaker
Season Two
Books / LGBTQ / Sleep
Read Me to Sleep, Ricky, the podcast for insomniacs who want to be lulled to sleep by something worth listening to, begins its second season on September 12, 2022 with a reading from host Rick Whitaker’s own 2013 novel An Honest Ghost, a literary stunt Edmund White called “an exhilarating, percussive experience,” and which poet John Ashbery selected as a Book of the Year for the TLS. The book consists entirely of sentences recycled from other books, unedited, just one sentence at a time, the first and only novel to be so composed.
The music for this episode is the complete Coronavirus Suite by composer Brad Garton (used by permission)
Copyright Rick Whitaker 2022 Music copyright Brad Garton 2022
“Rick Whitaker’s An Honest Ghost is both narrative and objet, a singular work of art whose singularity keeps beckoning to the reader. He has put the force back into tour de force.”
— John Ashbery, poet and recipient of the National Book Foundation Medal for Distinguished Contribution to American Letters
The following list contains all of the quotes, in order of appearance, that make up An Honest Ghost. Each quote is followed by the author who wrote it; the book in my library from which the sentence was taken; and the page number on which it appears in that edition. RW
An Honest Ghost: William Shakespeare Hamlet Act 1, Scene 5
Happiness is an: Thomas Szasz The Second Sin 36
I am unpacking: Walter Benjamin Illuminations 59
I have been: Andre Gide The Counterfeiters 180
It is growing: Hart Crane Library of America: Complete Poems and Selected Letters 358
There are limits: Rob Stephenson Passes Through 26
Life lived by: Susan Sontag I, etcetera: Stories 15
You go back: Samuel Beckett Nohow On 46
The subjective universe: Ludwig Wittgenstein Notebooks 1914-1916 41
There was an: Teju Cole Open City 166
It seemed neither: Carl Van Vechten Parties 105
"How can you: Max Ewing Going Somewhere 47
He was twenty-four: Max Ewing Going Somewhere 22
At the moment: Adam Thirwell Delighted States 38
David said, "I: Don DeLillo The Names 260
My splendid David: J. M. Barrie The White Bird 274
My daily recreational: Charles Kaiser The Gay Metropolis 243
"What color were: Don DeLillo The Names 108
Our little love: Alfred Chester Looking for Genet 161
"Oh! How long: Andre Gide The Counterfeiters 165
Well!: Jacques Lacan Four Fundamental Concepts of Psychoanalysis 109
I was dealing: Glen Baxter Returns to Normal (no page numbers)
He was really: David Wojnarowicz Memories That Smell Like Gasoline 39
I wrote in: Benjamin Sonnenberg Lost Property 93
There was something: D. H. Lawrence Sons and Lovers 99
To be in: Anita Brookner Look at Me 92
Sometimes he purred: Lincoln Kirstein By With To and From 37
He often pretended: Ben Marcus Notable American Women 130
The action signaled: Elizabeth Hardwick Sleepless Nights 15
I could spare: Thomas Bernhard "The Stories (Ed. David Constantine) 271 Joiner", German Short
I would lie: Virginia Woolf Orlando 90
I have never: Graham Greene Travels with My Aunt 3
A few years: Albert Camus The Fall 17
I lived in: Theophile Gautier Mademoiselle de Maupin 144
It was very: W. Somerset Maugham The Razor's Edge 187
These arrangements turned: Edmund White Nocturnes for the King of Naples 2
Few men have: Charles Baudelaire The Mirror of Art 192
Occasionally I had: Robert Bolaño By Night in Chile 85
David frowned: Eleanor Porter Just David 202
He was not: John Banville Doctor Copernicus 123
It had been: Brenda McCreight Parenting Your Adopted Older Child 187
When his friends: Robert Bolaño Amulet 79
His irony, intended: Susan Sontag I, etcetera.: Stories 48
Prodded by his: Nathanael West Miss Lonelyhearts 39
Once when I: Richard Gilman Common and Uncommon Mass 49
His rage had: John Banville Doctor Copernicus 78
The most innocent-seeming: John Banville Doctor Copernicus 112
His early childhood: James Schuyler Alfred and Guinivere viii (introduction by John Ashbery)
He was a: Rick Whitaker Assuming the Position 128
He died of: Alex Ross Listen to This 8
He lived a: Gilbert Highet Poets in a Landscape 174
Shall I describe: Neil Bartlett Ready to Catch Him Should He Fall 240
I found it: Theophile Gautier Mademoiselle de Maupin 317
His mother had: Don DeLillo The Names 225
After one first: Max Ewing Going Somewhere 51
She attended to: Max Ewing Going Somewhere 50
The immense accretion: Susan Howe My Emily Dickinson 105
She could be: Lydie Salvayre The Power of Flies 1
She drank, she: Elizabeth Hardwick Sleepless Nights 19
Her clothes seemed: Victoria Redel The Border of Truth 39
She had a: Djuna Barnes Nightwood 84
Her family, her: Willa Cather Youth and the Bright Medusa 85
David admires her: J. M. Barrie The White Bird 132
How tender people: Maximilien Robespierre Virtue and Terror 28
"I'm rough and: Rudy Wilson The Red Truck 140
One often makes: Ludwig Wittgenstein Notebooks 1914-1916 42
"What a sweet: Nathanael West Miss Lonelyhearts 29
Her voice was: Nathanael West Miss Lonelyhearts 49
I will not: Jane Gardam The Flight of the Maidens 211
David leaned my: Don DeLillo The Names 131
He was stretched: Colette The Pure and the Impure 44
He puts on: Ludwig Wittgenstein Lectures on Philosophical Psychology 1946-47 63
If there is: Samuel Beckett Disjecta 65
Though he was: Voltaire Zadig 21
Even more commendable: Voltaire Zadig 21
Very quickly, he: James Blake The Joint 183
He talked incessantly: Virginia Woolf Orlando 91
He was adequately: Andre Gide The Counterfeiters 205
Flushed with his: F. Scott Fitzgerald The Great Gatsby 137
I've been told: Montaigne Selected Essays 15
David recalled dimly: Andre Gide The Counterfeiters 205
Not that there: Edmund White City Boy 80
That is how: John Banville The Infinities 7
He spent his: Alan Bennett Writing Home 570
Although none of: Susan Sontag I, etcetera: Stories 15
I am interested: Susan Sontag I, etcetera: Stories 72
It is impossible: David Lehman, ed. Great American Prose Poems 221
Today is not. Gioia Timpanelli Sometimes the Soul 14
I swear I: Elizabeth Bishop One Art 529
But what kind: Adam Phillips Going Sane 17
We long for: Robert Lowell Collected Prose 192
Life and death: Gertrude Stein Wars I Have Seen 121
I believe in: Noel Coward Lyrics 73
My life is: David Lehman, ed. Great American Prose Poems 146
I live in: Susan Howe My Emily Dickinson 38
(Like Holden Caulfield: James Blake The Joint 234
All of us: W. G. Sebald Austerlitz 71
The Zen masters: Daisetz T. Suzuki Zen and Japanese Culture 7
All work is: David Lehman, ed. Great American Prose Poems 112
Shall we make: Maximilien Robespierre Virtue and Terror 115
The story that: Danilo Kiš A Tomb for Boris 1
To say that: Jorge Luis Borges Collected Fictions 480
This is my: Christopher Priest The Glamour 2
Not my usual: David McConnell The Firebrat 3
Day before yesterday: Elizabeth Bishop One Art 336
I got drunk: Paul Klee The Diaries of Paul Klee 186
I wasn't good: August Kleinzahler Cutty One Rock 80
That was about: Jean Echenoz I'm Gone 12
Soon I'd be: Edmund White My Lives 221
I took a: Charles Henri Ford Like Water From a Bucket 198
A black man: Virginia Woolf Orlando 56
The world to: Thomas Bernhard Prose 127
A part of: Glenway Wescott Continual Lessons 318
I didn't want: David McConnell Firebrat 2
I was amazed: Shohaku Okumura Living By Vow 133
I was lost: Dante trans. Mary Jo Bang The Inferno 15
Loneliness rose to: George W. S. Trow In the Context of No Context 49
When I got: Alfred Chester Looking for Genet 162
A sound of: Robert Bolaño Amulet 27
Who comes here: Jacques Lacan Four Fundamental Concepts of Psychoanalysis
Sometimes a venturesome: Mark Merlis American Studies 59
(O the weakness: Maximilien Robespierre Virtue and Terror 104
Still, the only: Mark Merlis American Studies 57
Ding-dong: Richard Rodriguez Brown 51
A minute later: Nathanael West Miss Lonelyhearts 139
I blushed intensely: Robert Bolaño By Night in Chile 14
Moving, as I: Fran Lebowitz Reader 137
The child was: Djuna Barnes Nightwood 68
We shook hands: Gore Vidal Palimpsest 122
He seemed bloodless: Paula Fox Poor George 18
I was all: Rob Stephenson Passes Through 27
Silence: Theodore Dreiser An American Tragedy 7
The uncertainty lasted: Danilo Kiš A Tomb for Boris 11
I would not: Darcy O'Brien A Way of Life, Like Any Other 5
There are only: Jean Genet The Declared Enemy 10
A shiver ran: Robert Bolaño By Night in Chile 84
It was a: Vladimir Nabokov Laughter in the Dark 21
He looked extremely: James Baldwin Notes of a Native Son 157
"Joe, how are: Charles Dickens Great Expectations 255
The visitor glided: Aidan Higgins Notes from a Receding Past 146
He gives me: Anne Landsman The Rowing Lesson 177
"I haf someding: Darcy O'Brien A Way of Life, Like Any Other 23
He looked at: Fyodor Dostoevsky The House of the Dead 230
"Please answer me: Albert Camus The Plague 50
How can I: Theophile Gautier Mademoiselle de Maupin 134
The question was: Sylvia Townsend Warner Summer Will Show 122
I do not: Diane Williams It Was Like My Trying to Have a Tender Hearted Nature 85
I don't want: Ivy Compton-Burnett Darkness and Day 7
Absolute silence: Darcy O'Brien A Way of Life, Like Any Other 49
"And besides, don't: Evan S. Connell Mrs. Bridge 122
This is a: Denis Donoghue American Classics 238
"Well well well: Anthony Burgess A Clockwork Orange 147
Unconditional surrender: Gertrude Stein Wars I Have Seen 110
Is that right: Mary McCarthy The Group 310
"You bet!" Joe: Ken Kesey Sometimes a Great Notion 492
"No harm in: F. Scott Fitzgerald The Great Gatsby 60
"I guess some: David McConnell The Silver Hearted 125
He noticed then: Kenzaburo Oe A Personal Matter 86
"Don't worry," I: Geoff Dyer Out of Sheer Rage: Wrestling with D.H. Lawrence 26
"Daddy was talking: Noel Coward Pomp and Circumstance 86
"Your father is: Darcy O'Brien A Way of Life, Like Any Other 24
This was all: Kenzaburo Oe A Quiet Life 3
"I am the: Italo Calvino Invisible Cities 152
"I like your: Plato Collected Dialogues 587
"De bargain it: Darcy O'Brien A Way of Life, Like Any Other 25
It was the: Giacomo Casanova History of My Life 932
One is always: James Lasdun The Horned Man 125
All was greyness: W. G. Sebald After Nature 65
"I haven't figured: Binnie Kirshenbaum Pure Poetry 50
"But you really: Dezso Kosztalanyi Skylark 76
And so we: James Danziger American Photographs (introduction, no page numbers)
Phew: James Joyce Finnegans Wake 522
That night, after: Kenzaburo Oe A Quiet Life 125
The twilight desert: Kenzaburo Oe A Quiet Life 127
What does this: Daniel Dennett Consciousness Explained 130
The rain beat: Anton Chekhov The Portable Chekhov 384
All night long: Philip Roth Professor of Desire 262
The dream is: Bruce Duffy The World As I Found It 31
The lamp is: Samuel Beckett Disjecta 22
But whirligig Time: Richard Rodriguez Brown 143
I awoke, yet: John Ashbery Flow Chart 192
Lost in darkness: David Lynch Lost Highway xi
Living with a: Chris Kutschera The Kurdish National Movement 94
The first three: Amy Hempel At the Gates of the Animal Kingdom 43
My artistic nature: Lydie Salvayre Portrait of the Artist as a Domesticated Animal 23
It was my: Andrew Holleran Nights in Aruba 31
Suspense is fascinating: Nick Piombino Contradicta 20
It is fear: Montaigne Selected Essays 25
I regret sometimes: Guy Hocquenghem Screwball Asses 16
The taboo gives: Adam Phillips Equals 58
But most men: Alan Bennett Writing Home 64
Fear tweaks the: Christopher Isherwood A Single Man 9
So David tells: J. M. Barrie The White Bird 11
Naturally: Merle Miller On Being Different 16
Though blue, the: Albert Camus The Plague 36
Very strange: David Lynch Lost Highway 17
To look at: Susan Sontag Styles of Radical Will 10
"I suppose my: Ivy Compton-Burnett Parents and Children 7
"I know you: Andre Tellier Twilight Men 72
From the first: Thomas Bernhard The Loser 10
"I wonder why: Ivy Compton-Burnett Parents and Children 17
Few emotions are: W. G. Sebald On the Natural History of Destruction 129
She sounded slightly: Colm Toibin The Master 252
Her voice softened: Heinrich Boll The Silent Angel 139
She was capable: Wendy Moffat A Great Unrecorded History 7
"Oh, well-behaved: Georges Bataille The Blue of Noon 18
A hard-bitten: Virginia Woolf Orlando 40
She's insane and: Mary Jo Bang Inferno 18
At this very: Kazuo Ishiguro The Remains of the Day 48
Poor Eleanor, how: Edward St Aubyn At Last 104
When we reflect: Shunryu Suzuki Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind 39
In a flurry: Susanna Pinney, ed. I'll Stand by You: Letters of Sylvia Townsend Warner 13
She was on: W. Somerset Maugham The Razor's Edge 212
Her beauty seemed: Andrew Holleran Nights In Aruba 34
"In this heat,": Ronald Firbank Three More Novels 55
It was a: Sylvia Townsend Warner Summer Will Show 85
New York on: Anita Brookner Look at Me 41
Her unassailable assumption: Jane Gardam Faith Fox 63
She often refers: Peter Cameron Someday This Pain Will Be Useful To You 57
There all the: James Joyce Ulysses 37
She was silent: Jenny McPhee A Man of No Moon 268
But her beauty: Bill Pronzini The Hidden 41
Her feelings came: NOON 2007 ed., Diane Williams 160
She stressed her: Denton Welch Maiden Voyage 257
Naturally she is: Gertrude Stein Wars I Have Seen 146
"David," she said: Honoré de Balzac Lost Illusions 505
Brava!: Lydie Salvayre Portrait of the Artist as a Domesticated Animal 179
She stood there: H. Rider Haggard She 161
I am but: H. Rider Haggard She 187
In any case: Gore Vidal Palimpsest 159
Anxiety like a: Leo Lerman The Grand Surprise 511
Anxiety being the: David Markson Wittgenstein's Mistress 72
I expected sympathy: Gore Vidal Palimpsest 239
The weather had: Joris-Karl Huysmans Against Nature 166
It was hot: Theodore Dreiser An American Tragedy 514
I spent that: James Lasdun The Horned Man 161
I was lying: Noel Coward Pomp and Circumstance 75
I read it: Shohaku Okumura Living By Vow 133
The only fact: Denis Donoghue American Classics 205
I like to: David Lehman, ed. Great American Prose Poems 216
There is no: Italo Calvino Invisible Cities 48
Above me, in: H. G. Wells The Time Machine 118
Here we are: Celine Death on the Installment Plan 15
Take a few: B. K. S. Iyengar Light on Yoga 22
I felt naked: H. G. Wells The Time Machine 27
So I enter: B. K. S. Lyengar Light on Yoga 394
In many respects: Tim Dean Unlimited Intimacy 195
What stumps me: Lucia Perillo I've Heard the Vultures Singing 18
Everything was becoming: Georges Bataille The Blue of Noon 84
I kept having: Gordon Lish Zimzum 75
Why do we: Slavoj Zizek Did Somebody Say Totalitarianism? 196
I used to: Robert Bolaño By Night in Chile 1
But gay men: Edmund White City Boy 80
We always worry: Michael Cunningham By Nightfall 53
I am almost: Ludwig Wittgenstein Notebooks 1914-1916 31
The razor-sharp: Robert Bolaño Amulet 49
My decision to: Gore Vidal Palimpsest 385
I lacked both: Alex Ross Listen to This 7
I am forty: Kenneth Koch 1000 Avant-Garde Plays 19
Beneath everything else: Edmund White Nocturnes for the King of Naples 88
The place was: Graham Greene The Heart of the Matter 8
The problem is: Iannis Xenakis Formalized Music 29
I opened the: Teju Cole Open City 164
Generally, even then: David Markson Wittgenstein's Mistress 240
A lost soul: Robert Frost The Notebooks of Robert Frost 373
That's me: Sherrie Eldridge 20 Things Adopted Kids Wish Their Adoptive Parents Knew 169
The psychological feeling: Theodor Adorno The Stars Down to Earth 128
I dropped David: J. M. Barrie The White Bird 211
"Did you know: H. Rider Haggard She 81
Several times he: Colm Toibin The Master 248
David extended his: Carl Van Vechten Parties 173
"I'm so sorry: Edith Wharton The Age of Innocence 62
The things one: David Markson Wittgenstein's Mistress 53
"I am glad: Noel Coward Pomp and Circumstance 12
The irony of: Charles Kaiser 1968 in America 239
"How are you: Alfred Chester The Exquisite Corpse 49
He does not: Giacomo Casanova History of My Life 931
"I am the: Andre Tellier Twilight Men 24
There was a: Walter Kirn My Hard Bargain 69
But soon this: Huysmans Against Nature 207
What, if anything: Harold Bloom Hamlet: Poem Unlimited 86
What was the: H. Rider Haggard She 96
Who will speak: Michael Cunningham By Nightfall 54
"Which cathedral do: Denton Welch Maiden Voyage 37
A moan burst: Carl Van Vechten Parties 130
He was handsome: Henry James The Aspern Papers and The Turn of the Screw 149
His broad shoulders: Edmund White My Lives 222
"But you have: John Ashbery April Galleons 24
You are too: Gore Vidal Two Sisters 14
It's too serious: Edith Wharton The Age of Innocence 105
Amused, I nodded: Colette Pure and Impure 15
"I may be: Rachel Ingalls Mrs. Caliban 7
We will see: Frederick Seidel Poems 1959-2009 186
"Fortunately, I know: J. D. Salinger Franny and Zooey 157
"I'm interested in: David McConnell The Silver Hearted 122
"Ah.": David McConnell The Silver Hearted 123
His leisure hours: Alex Ross Listen to This 126
There is, of: Michael Cunningham By Nightfall 19
He was young: Virginia Woolf Orlando 28
And so on: Roland Barthes Reader xiii
He was a: James Joyce Portait of the Artist as a Young Man 192
Take care of: Susanna Pinney, ed. I'll Stand by You: Letters of Sylvia Townsend Warner 19
Do you love: Kenneth Koch 1000 Avant-Garde Plays 19
The cuckoo came: John Ashbery and James Schuyler A Nest of Ninnies 40
It was a: James Joyce Dubliners 31
Summer was a: Rudy Wilson The Red Truck 129
Inwardness, calm, solitude: Roland Barthes Mourning Diary 100
No, that's too: Merle Miller On Being Different 19
Silence: Vladimir Nabokov Laughter in the Dark 192
At one point: Ron Padgett Joe 24
I must photograph: Charles Henri Ford Like Water from a Bucket 153
Little ineffectual unquenchable: E.M. Forster A Passage to India 120
It was the: Virginia Woolf Orlando 85
He was looking: Thomas Bernhard "The Joiner" German Short Stories ed., David Constantine 263
He is not: John Banville The Infinities 9
Solitude had acted: J-K. Huysmans Against Nature 84
At school, he: Edgar Saltus Mr. Incoul's Misadventure 4
The other children: Edmund White Genet xv
In the meantime: Thomas Bernhard The Loser 16
There was an: David Wojnarowicz Memories That Smell Like Gasoline 27
He's a beautiful: James Blake The Joint 167
It hurts to: John Waters Role Models 294
I have often: Gore Vidal Palimpsest 295
I admit I: Edmund White Genet 100
(In Wilde's phrase: Roland Barthes Reader xvi
Similarly, I sometimes: David Levithan The Full Spectrum 172
We can only: Ivy Compton-Burnett Darkness and Day 8
By Thanksgiving, Joe: Ron Padgett Joe 87
He stayed at: Filip Noterdaeme The Autobiography of Daniel J. Isengart 73
He asked me: James Blake The Joint 167
"Even if there: Kenzaburo Oe A Quiet Life 149
I don't want: Sam Massey Return of the Greek 47
I am like: Conor Cruise O'Brien Camus 29
We're going to: Giacomo Leopardi Canti 25
Salvation lies in: Sarah Bakewell How to Live 35
"Can't you smell: J-K Huysmans Against Nature 118
"What is it?: Brenda McCreight Parenting Your Adopted Older Child 32
I suddenly thought: Frederick Seidel Poems 1959-2009 3
He was the: D. H. Lawrence Sons and Lovers 85
What had been: Gioia Timpanelli Sometimes the Soul 21
It was like: Franz Kafka The Castle 27
"Yes, yes, I: Graham Greene The Heart of the Matter 31
I feel in: D. H. Lawrence Selected Letters 260
You must have: Max Ewing Going Somewhere 79
You're not angry: O. Henry The Four Million 67
"No," said Joe: Charles Dickens Barnaby Rudge 105
I want his: James Joyce Ulysses 46
"I think that: Sam Massey Return of the Greek 65
Anyway, you'll get: Mark Merlis American Studies 168
"Will you?" said: Charles Dickens Barnaby Rudge 584
"What is that: John Banville The Infinities 11
"Men are such: Michael Cunningham By Nightfall 53
Score one for: Michael Cunningham By Nightfall 55
The world was: Vladimir Nabokov Laughter in the Dark 192
The nature of: Andrezj Walicki A History of Russian Thought 24
But in all: James Blake The Joint 313
I get bored: Umberto Eco The Mysterious Flame of Queen Loana 327
This is the: Alan Bennett Writing Home xiii
To me there: Ivy Compton-Burnett Darkness and Day 14
In the course: J-K Huysmans Against Nature 118
But the city: Gilbert Highet Poets in a Landscape 162
"We are both: Charles Henri Ford Like Water From a Bucket 214
He was no: Edmund White Rimbaud 35
"You're probably wondering: Plato Gorgias 12
He begins to: Giles and Miller, eds. The Arts of Contemplative Care 75
Joe looked at: Charles Dickens Great Expectations 559
Every heartstring is: Edmund White Rimbaud 21
It would be: W. H. Auden Forewords and Afterwords 292
It took him: Rudyard Kipling Kim 118
The eloquence of: Dickens Barnaby Rudge 632
The silence speaks: James Joyce Finnegans Wake 10
Like a big: Kenzaburo Oe A Quiet Life 2
He knew I: Lincoln Kirstein By With To and From 70
Thank God for: Frederick Seidel Poems 1959-2009 5
You can count: Sherrie Eldridge 20 Things Adopted Kids Wish Their Adoptive Parents Knew 143
Everybody knows you: John Waters Role Models 264
"I'm the man: D. H. Lawrence Sons and Lovers 84
He knocked at: Charles Kaiser The Gay Metropolis 21
"I am!": Charles Dickens Great Expectations 164
But many questions: Hungarian Photographs 26
Either way, I: George W. S. Trow Bullies 4
David watched my: J. M. Barrie The White Bird 101
"You hear what: Charles Dickens Barnaby Rudge 10
We must be: Charles Dickens Barnaby Rudge 109
You're so reluctant: Peter Cameron Someday This Pain Will Be Useful To You 55
Am I upsetting: J. D. Salinger Franny and Zooey 196
He looked over: Sarah Schulman The Child 19
"Oh, you'll see: E. F. Benson David Blaize 54
Here he poured: Virginia Woolf Orlando 89
Joe could only: Charles Dickens Barnbaby Rudge 633
"You're useless: Binnie Kirshenbaum Pure Poetry 55
He told him: Danilo Kiš A Tomb for Boris 12
"It's not my: Thomas Bernhard The Loser 14
Don't we all: Jean-Christophe Valtat 03 68
We identify with: Tim Dean Unlimited Intimacy 23
David gave a: E. F. Benson David Blaize 31
He crawled back: John Banville Doctor Copernicus 85
Words, words, words: William Shakespeare Hamlet (Yale) 60
Every morning: Thomas Bernhard Prose 125
He looked forward: Colm Toibin The Master 233
Well, never mind: Plato Gorgias 13
We observe our: Thomas Dumm Loneliness as a Way of Life 98
Back in the: Gore Vidal Palimpsest 385
Even the self-deprecating: Joseph P. Lash: Eleanor and Franklin 179
We spent the: Robert Bolaño Amulet 105
We discovered (very: Jorge Luis Borges Collected Fictions 68
Eleanor gave a: Ivy Compton-Burnett Parents and Children 69
She was wearing: John Fowles The Magus 14
It was that: James Joyce Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man 191
I viewed her: Andrew Holleran Nights in Aruba 40
She flung herself: Vladimir Nabokov Laughter in the Dark 62
"What a city: John Ashbery Flow Chart 189
Paris is the: Charles Henri Ford Like Water from a Bucket 208
When I look: David Lehman, ed. Great American Prose Poems 128
This is in: Conor Cruise O'Brien Camus 78
"Is it a: J. M. Coetzee Waiting for the Barbarians 84
"Do you know: Gioia Timpanelli Sometimes the Soul 151
As if: Thomas Dumm Loneliness as a Way of Life 34
I rose from: Andrew Holleran Nights in Aruba 42
I've had it: Robert Bolaño Amulet 35
Let them think: John Francis Hunter The Gay Insider 26
But in France: Milan Kundera Testaments Betrayed 181
This is real: Adam Thirlwell Delighted States 88
Swarms of crows: Franz Kafka The Castle 11
The fact is: Huysmans Against Nature 181
To me it: William Shakespeare Hamlet (Yale) 63
"Well," she says: Justin Taylor Everything Here is the Best Thing Ever 117
She moved in: Jean Genet Querelle 152
She was as: Georges Bataille The Blue of Noon 11
She was bizarre: John Fowles The Magus 14
"No means no: Bill Pronzini The Hidden 44
Perhaps you can: Theopile Gautier Mademoiselle de Maupin 97
"If you're hungry: Blair Niles Strange Brother 130
She went back: Rachel Ingalls Mrs. Caliban 63
Her thoughts were: Djuna Barnes Nightwood 76
She is inexhaustibly: Theopile Gautier Mademoiselle de Maupin 99
And though there: Sylvia Townsend Warner Summer Will Show 87
Her eyes sparkled: Danilo Kiš A Tomb for Boris 8
What can I: Charles Burkhart I. Compton-Burnett 50
She did not: Carson McCullers Member of the Wedding 22
I understand: Plato Collected Dialogues 619
A woman whom: Colette Pure and Impure 43
I had been: Adam Phillips Equals 122
To poeticize oneself: Søren Kierkegaard Diary of a Seducer 112
It is something: Jacques Lacan Four Fundamental Concepts of Psychoanalysis 113
She turned: H. Rider Haggard She 231
"What have you: Henry Green Doting 42
She repeated all: Neil Bartlett Ready to Catch Him 198
For if there: Ronald Firbank Three More Novels 52
Imagine what that: Susan Sontag I, etcetera: Stories 144
"You think of: Jenny McPhee A Man of No Moon 208
She was really: Lydie Salvayre Company of Ghosts 15
I am nonviolent: John Francis Hunter Gay Insider 27
Luckily, the: Glen Baxter Returns to Normal (no page numbers)
It's still too: John Ashbery April Galleons 23
"I wish I: Noel Coward Pomp and Circumstance 49
The indifference in: Jorges Luis Borges Collected Fictions 284
What makes us: Adam Phillips On Balance 267
The evening ended: Glen Baxter Returns to Normal (no page numbers)
The great revolutions: Justin O'Brien Camus 34
If, as John: Adam Phillips On Balance 93
Now that the: Denton Welch Maiden Voyage 210
At night this: Alfred Chester Looking for Genet 172
Cars were rare: Justin Taylor Everything Here is the Best Thing Ever 3
The black cattle: Glenway Wescott Continual Lessons 175
Night music: Marlene Van Niekerk Agaat 2
Most of the: Clive Fisher Hart Crane 251
But the people: Elizabeth Gilbert Last American Man 215
The high cold: James Joyce Dubliners 33
2:00-5:00: Susan Sontag Reborn 17
The pen was: John Ashbery April Galleons 1
I could go: Joshua Mehigan The Optimist 58
I wrote about: Robert Bolaño By Night in Chile 84
Every book is: Helen Keller The World I Live In 14
How deep-seated: Glenway Wescott Continual Lessons 169
Like an earnest: Kenneth Burke Towards a Better Life 24
It is up: Charles Guignon On Being Authentic 130
These are the: Adam Phillips On Balance 236
They lived und: James Joyce Finnegans Wake 28
What a difference: Pascal Pensees 168
I am forever: John Francis Hunter The Gay Insider 78
Silly seasons: Harold Bloom Anatomy of Influence 13
Tinkering over sentences: David McConnell Firebrat 3
Lately, my sexual: Susan Sontag I, etcetera: Stories 45
Revenge fucking: Michael Herr Kubrick 88
I felt excellent: Walter Kirn My Hard Bargain 103
Nonetheless my condition: David Markson Wittgenstein's Mistress 133
Loners can be: David McConnell Firebrat 3
It was all: Frederick Seidel Poems 1959-2009 9
Unending flights: W. G. Sebald After Nature 61
Other people see: Adam Phillips On Balance 224
I entered silently: Edmund White Noctures for the King of Naples 84
Then I stood: Daniel Kehlmann Me and Kaminsky 94
After that it: Graham Greene May We Borrow Your Husband 140
Writers are a: Justin O'Brien Camus 103
Our ears: Henry James Portrait of a Lady 311
The better you: D. H. Lawrence Studies in Classic American Literature 42
Yet I could: John Ashbery Flow Chart 178
I am beginning: Andre Gide The Counterfeiters 205
I have always: Elizabeth Hardwick Sleepless Nights 11
And this must: Ludwig Wittgenstein Notebooks 1914-1916 13
My mother's femaleness: Elizabeth Hardwick Sleepless Nights 152
My mother was: Georges Bataille The Blue of Noon 12
This was her: Dezso Kosztalanyi Skylark 15
And walking in: Djuna Barnes Nightwood 61
For nothing could: Lydie Salvayre Company of Ghosts 18
The dizziness and: E. F. Benson The Freaks of Mayfair 53
Women baffled me: Andrew Holleran Nights in Aruba 33
I was born: Wayne Koestenbaum Moira Orfei in Aigues Mortes 6
It was an: Mary McCarthy The Group 292
It was 1968: Paul Griffiths Modern Music 173
A sordid sexual: David McConnell Firebrat 81
From the beginning: Mikis Theodorakis Journal of Resistance 29
It's something almost: David Wojnarowicz Memories That Smell Like Gasoline 47
Grown-ups tried: Jean-Christophe Valtat 03 69
I was a: Jean Genet The Declared Enemy 8
My mother was: Andrew Holleran Nights in Aruba 33
Days and nights: Thomas Bernhard Prose 121
After I had: Denton Welch Maiden Voyage 7
I knew that: George Orwell An Age Like This 1
I became a: Richard Rodriguez Brown 147
Land of noble: Walicki A History of Russian Thought 75
New York City: Hart Crane Libray of America: Complete Poems and Selected Letters 306
New York seemed: James Blake The Joint 309
Meanwhile, the possibility: Paul Griffiths Modern Music 150
Thank you, Proust: Michael Cunningham By Nightfall 17
I was glad: Denton Welch Maiden Voyage 35
Then the amazing: E. F. Benson The Freaks of Mayfair 111
My mother wanted: John Cheever Stories 691
"My dear," she: F. Scott Fitzgerald The Great Gatsby 40
My childhood was: Fran Lebowitz Reader 38
Insanity, of course: Mark Rowlands The Philosopher and the Wolf 18
We find our: Charles Guignon On Being Authentic 87
My mother has: Susan Sontag I, etcetera: Stories 133
My father went: Teju Cole Open City 188
Though long dead: Gore Vidal Palimpsest 256
"I didn't," said Joe: O. Henry The Four Million 67
My experience of: John Cage Musicage 60
Perhaps the least: Fran Lebowitz Reader 88
Yet any distinction: Harold Bloom Anatomy of Influence 4
David and I: J. M. Barrie The White Bird 267
We had been: W. Somerset Maugham The Razor's Edge 89
(Talking, talking: Gardner Grendel 8
It seemed that: AA Bronson Lana 149
"This traffic jam: J. G. Ballard Cocaine Nights 11
Outside, the land: Italo Calvino Invisible Cities 14 Burnett 66
"What seems beautiful: Charles Burkhart The Art of I. Compton
Something lovely happened: Justin Spring Secret Historian 166
There was zest: Jean Rhys After Leaving Mr. Mackenzie 37
A policeman entered: Daniel Kehlmann Measuring the World 11
With a stick: Danilo Kiš A Tomb for Boris 9
Here he drank: Thomas Hardy Jude the Obscure 119
"Are you trying: James Joyce Dubliners 119
"I came here: Daniel Mendelsohn The Elusive Embrace 62
He bowed and: Jorge Luis Borges Collected Fictions 383
And that was: Thomas Bernhard Frost 11
And then there: Virginia Woolf Diaries Vol V. 359
Silence is a: Susan Sontag Styles of Radical Will 18
I have a: Jean-Christophe Valtat 03 82
I am writing: Jean Genet Funeral Rites 13
And I'm still: Giacomo Leopardi Canti 21
Always alone: James Joyce Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man 196
This is a: Daisetz T. Suzuki Zen and Japanese Culture 232
I move books: Brane Mozetic Banalities 8
Our solutions are: Adam Phillips On Balance 272
Man has become: Guy Hocquenghem Screwball Asses 56
How did we: Giacomo Leopardi Canti 149
As the activity: Susan Sontag Styles of Radical Will 4
This is, as: Roland Barthes Critical Essays 12
The only good: Jean-Christophe Valtat 03 48
It is endless: John Daido Loori The Eight Gates of Zen 44
Forget it; forget: Jean Rhys After Leaving Mr. Mackenzie 28
Zee End: James Joyce Finnegans Wake 28